Just a Dream

9:21 a.m.
Just woke up from one of the most outrageous dreams I've ever had. So I'm listening to Just a Dream -Nelly (standard) and reciting what I can remember...don't judge. My family (mom dad Austin and Lexi) came to see me in Oklahoma. My dad drove a straight 16 hours here he said...not even sure if thats possible. My sister then was like I have to work at 3 p.m. tomorrow and it was 3 p.m. then.,..I was like well you'll have to leave at 11 pm. tonight to make it on time..that gives us 8 hours what do you wanna do? LOL (this is hilarious because it's always my sister who we call Last Minute Lexi to notify us of details such as oh I have to work in an hour, or wait I forgot my phone 3 miles down the road, or Dad I ran out of gas for the 3rd time etc) anyway We had plans to go to the OKC zoo.  So I drove ahead in my Impala and they followed behind in the Vibe. On I 40 somehwere all of a sudden in the oncoming lanes there was a white car with guy on top just driving like 25 mph, shoooting all the cars in our lanes. We all pulled over and I climbed out into the ditch...seemed liek a good idea since everyone else was doing the same. As I tried to climb to the ditch and slither my way across the hot pavement I had to dodge oncoming cars from running me over! I remember covering my head with my hand and hoping that at least my brain would be protected. I got into the ditch somehow but the guys in the white car saw me. They aimed and shot me up the back, it didnt hurt that much kind of like a dull numbing feeling. They say you don't feel pain in dreams and I think thats definitely true, but I wouldnt know what being shot with a gun feels like so can't verify that.  They came over to my side and grabbed me and dragged me into their car. When we got to wherever we were going one of the guys started to talk to me and he was actually really nice. For some reason I was strapped into a wheelchair and he gave me some bright yellow crap -Riddalin he said it was. (Yeah my ass) and then told me he was going to shoot a syringe full of some Epinephrine into my leg. I asked him if it was gonna kill me and he said no but if might kill your heart. He turned his head to grab the syringe and I wiped half the Riddalin on the ground and then quick licked my hand of what was left. Clearly you could see the bright yellow blob on the ground where I had just wiped it! LOL this is hilarious as I"m thinking about it now because its my dream and those were the 2 worst drugs I could think of?? Riddalin and Epinephrine? REALLY? bahahah k so after he shot me with the syringe I don't remember too much. My heart started racing really fast and I got really shaky but thats about it...After it started to wear off I asked if we could go to the zoo and he agreed. He dropped me off at the front and went to park. As soon as he dropped me off I ran at the speed of lightning and found my mom. I yelled SOMEONES AFTER ME!  and we immediately got the zoo security to help us out. The end. I don't know if we caught him but seriously, wtf...

June 10, 2011 Happiness

Today is the happiest I have felt in a long time. I feel invincible, like I could climb Mt. Everest or swim to Europe or walk on fire. Okay just kidding, not that invincible. But I really am just happy happy happyyyy! Could be due to this cute boy I met and all the adventures  I've been having :), could be due to the fact I've lost 9 lbs since I've been here, 3% body fat and can run 4.5 miles without getting tired!, could be due to my grandma feeling better, could be due to me getting a roommate in a couple weeks!!! could be just a combination of everything and all of the above! I am just excited & thankful for each day. If there's anything I've learned this year it's been that life is just way too short. There's no use trying to rush the year and a half I have left in Oklahoma I mise well take each day as it comes, live in the moment, and not think too much about the future. I know everything's going to work out and I will end up exactly where I'm supposed to be. Anywho, I wanted to document how truly happy I was feeling at this moment right now and remember it. So there it is. Happiness. Everyone can see it but only you can feel it's warmth.